Thursday, 27 July 1978
The Eve
For what to be is, not to be is, soul, God....for what greens, flowers, rivers, forests are...... No water, my head is dried up. And again, not to be. Music, subsequently again, a woman. .........Sense! Thus my head thinks. And again I am. And again it's music. Subsequently again......One woman. And again I,Never am dubious I am. I am never dubious I am. And again flowers. Once flowers are my foe......it's too small. And again my friend......it's too big. And again it's not to be, that's it. From next to not to be.My mind is too big, because my capacity is too small. My mind is just a being. I respect to be existing. A woman is a child. Because a man is a dog. And again, my head thinks. I think senses. Nobody can write. Therefore I can't write.Marriage in natural consequences. Meaningless discharge. Excess. Eyes listen to all the voices, a mouth sees some voices, and my head to eat. Because as if a horse sees fire, mist implies an atomosphere, there's no word. Substance that just exists, life derived from inconsistency, Sycamoreleaf tree born from the soul, then again a rotten head. A big pot, this dried up hair that brought me former victory. The acts of butchery is so sore in my eyes, once I loved the perfect darkness, and there's something, the epitaph on the grave that relish having them freezed the hands that's unable to grasp anything.I had seen in sequence. I thought the fear and remained it in the brain. And again the thought of genius injured my brain, and had me drink fresh tomato juice. I had seen in sequence freely. My world has two, and was completely different. One is I had seen the fate in sequence, and the other is I had seen...... what I understand. Those are a man and God, a sphynx and a lion. Delirium is order, because I had seen it.What I saw the next was just a vacant hole, glass and lenses, a carriage and light, a brain that thinks nothing, something without eyes, a woman who has got a clot blood from a nose to a head, it's the eve, everyday I stop thinking, everyday I am just the things, power and light, dream and substance, tepid crisis, and crisis, oh my head, I will follow my head!Oh I see, and my head felt. My consciousness keeps on, a treason drowned, a freeman crossed the car, tomorrow night I will see a woman, talk to a guy who has got fish hands.I am never aware of it. I came to be violent extremely.It's night. A thought never exists. I am the only poet, and a bunch of flowers. A man wearing suits stepped downstairs, heading for the car, as if a bull were slipping away from cliff.What did I see? I saw everything, the whole things that exist now. Arthur Rimbaud signified me extremely. He is a big being, a human, a bull. That's not connected to Satan. Light is aware of him and being made him mad goes ahead from the deep mountains now. The eve is long.If everything exists, there's no my nose. Because into my nose I had given a mad screw, a ballpoint pen like a watch, little by little for a long time. If I've got a thought, it's a sound. No news. A primitive figure changes since long ago, a deep light my head is aware of, and it's also a cool drop as if it were pouring. One big needle in the air of wrath as if it were boiling. They've got no chances to get out of it, rule over me, annihilate me, annoy me, oppress the feeling whether summer is better than winter, smashed the wild pig and put them into my eyes, decrease my sense extremely, killed my reason which ordered that I should hate a guy, am I serious that order I should know God, am I me?I am exhausted. If I had things to see to seek for a console land, an upper arms of a woman, I feel comfort, the bosoms that are her figure are as natural as possible. That's also a life, and an integration. Therefore I feel tired and went to a distant desert, found three stars, admire Magi as Angels, breathed a sacred breath to the Tristar, hate the ones who want to be the art themselves.I deny. I'm exhausted, totally exhausted. I saw an upgoing shooting star far away.As if God wants to be God, men want to be men, I am to be me, passing through night and day, hens provide fresh blood at dawn, I will face 33 men with the help of women. When I found them just a breath I hugged women, went to the town of St Lous in the north, gripped the powdered milk, cried as a mad man, she went up to the heaven there, when I saw it she was contained by an angelic light, when my mouth swallowed everything passing through day, night and morning, and again I myself fell into being, day by day saw men, towns, a cross and saw music and I found human culture stands on the roof and the extraterrestrial's real image that has been making a great effort to establish the human symbol in it, and submit to the day to come, is that OK? What I saw at the same time becomes past, present and future over time, over lands, over the sea, over the green eyes, sink into the bottom of the sea, melt with modern science, over men, over women's body, I would rather feel hot than I perspire seeing the dream, melt with humans who live in the vessel of the hands than being harmed by animals that direct the cruel tanks. ______Someone let him know where I'm heading for. I saw what I saw. I am insisting I saw what we are unable to see. I'm saying I see tanks in the violet, a big face near rthe horizon.Blood is a piece of buttonWhen I look into it, that draws the archWhen I look down it, that is above the headMountains respect the valleyBecause the high is bloodThe low is buttonAs such I came madAs if I were eatingAs if it were a mad tailIt sprung it dispersed as if eyes were hurt by itThere's no guaranty for Self to be the same as the self being concious at present. As well, time comes over the description and men eat quicksilver in the thermometre. What they eat is as good as decay or my gray matter is, prosecute the fruition in perseverances, and why not prepare for the day to comeYet, yet it's eve. Tomorrow I will find myself to be sober, oh, witches. ____Stop. It is necessary for me to take a rest for the day to come. I perspired. I saw the moon. At dawn over the mountains, over the valley, over the dream, pick out a piece of stone, throw it to the tristar far away on the top of the mountain, stars include the night, praise the 'world' we live___in order for us to need a finger to point, direct the clock.To the bottom of the muddy pondTremendously big stone was thrownDispersed black dyed the stars in the nightThen'Cat's Eyes'Gave off the light suddenly from the utter blackSignified the universe all at onceAfter thatFrom the Alps MountainsTremendously small piano came outDon't be afraid ofNow Mrs XXFell off and passed-Jul/27, 1978
The Eve
Zen Ya IX - I
Zen Ya
Saturday, 8. April 2006, 19:21:43
Saturday, April 08, 2006
Zen Ya XVIII
Soushita koto no subete wa suijou(on the water) no gassou(ensamble) dakara boku ni wa toutei obotsukanai.
Senzai(detergent) wo tsukatte wa kirei ninaru hame wo shiru rashii to iu kara hotel nami da.
Arashi no naka wo fune ga susunde iku
Nezumi ga ippiki shinda
Sore wa kono hi(day) wo shitte ita no ka
Chiisana mushi(insect) wa mushiro sukinakurai de
Boku wa furo no naka ni namikimichi wo mita
Kore de kono shi(poem)no hanbun ga sugita ga
Itsumo wareware no mae ni tachihadakarukoto wo shiranai de boku wa iru
20/Sep/1980
posted by mercedo at 9:09 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya XVII
Ink wo keshite Koroshi wo yamete
Tasogare wa mizu(water) ni nabiku gozen(morning) no yuuhi(sunset)
Tetsutachi(steels)was ishi(stones) wo kuchiku(kick out) shi
Mirai wa kono toki wo tsukuru
Tenmon(astronomy) wa hirakarete iru to iu kara
Tonde iru hibi(days) no natsu no yuugure da.
Soushite mo nao, boku wa mi ni oboe no nai koto wo ukenakereba ikenai
Higaisha wa gaijin wo kuroku someru rashii. Kuroi yuuhi wa sono ba kagiri de atte wa ikenai shi, mata sono te wo boku ga namete miru.
Moromoro no
Yuugure no naka no atama wa karappo
Demo boku wa yukou
Kasakasashita genjitsu de aru to wa omowanai
Toritachi ga mizube de kuchi wo tsugumu you ni
Imamade no koto wa subete kuchi wo tsugunde
Ikanakutewa ikenai Shuppatsu no tame ni mo
Sore wa arera ni mo mashite
Shinde iru shigai(corpus) wa kitanai to iu node
Boku wa yakudousuru nyotai(woman body)wo motometa no de aru ga
Sorekara ikunichi ka tatte
Boku no tokimeki ga naku
Temoii to iu hibi(days) wo genshutsu surumafuyu no hibi(days) wo
Hinode to tomo ni boku wa iku natsu no yuugure
Sore wa 'Zenin(approval)' to iu imi nano da
Konomama susume to iu shimizu no oto ga kikoeru
Ano yama no sanpuku kara wa
Machimachi no sugata wa mieta de arou ni
Hashikiraneba naranu Kono fuyu no hibi(days)
Natsu wo keshite
Moeteiku onna no karada no ue(up) de
Boku wa tada naranu koto wo shirihajimete iru no de
posted by mercedo at 8:18 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya XV
Sonzai wa boku wo yagate hi(sun)no naka ni mitsume naoshi
Hankachi no kitte(cut) otosareta tokoro wo chi(blood) ga nurarete iku no wa nanto mo fushigi na ki ga suru no da
Tokoro de boku no shitte iru koto daga
garasu no mae no onna hodo kirei ni boku wo ishiki surumono wa nairashii to iu kara
Soushita koro taiheiyou jou wo kirameku okugata ga hadaka de nurashita otoko no kawo mo shiru no da.Kounatte kara to iu mono koroshiai wa Gadalcanal no rentai(platoon) wo moromoro ni shita.
posted by mercedo at 7:30 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya XVI
Garasu wa kuzure ochite
Douyara sebiro no otokotachi wa
Koushite itsumo kawasuji no semai michi wo tootte gakkou wo koroshimete iru rashii ga,
Boku ni wa sore ga kyoufu ni mo miezu, doushitemo onnanoko ga suki de aru kara,
Onna ga aruku no wa kaidan wo kegasu ubaguruma no chichi(bosom) no chi(blood) no niwoi wo kagu koto ga hitsuyou de aru to kiku(listen) no wa,
Totemo ii kimochi de mo
Yagate tsukisasaru mono wa nuite mo shiranyo to iihanachi,
Tondemo nai tokoro kara boku wa iikimochi de neteiru to iwareru okusama tachi wa shiawase de aru.
Nagai doubutsu no seikatsu kara kontoki wo egaku pen no nagare wa onna ni shiawase wo ataeru hakuchou no kubi no nagasa de aru kara
Yuki(snow) ga futtemo boku ni wa tondemo nai koto no you niwa omowarenai aki(autumn) no yuugure wa subarashii to iu hibi(days) wo motsu no wa, kono boku ga osoreteiru.
Shikashi sore wa boku no yowasa dewa naika toiu manatsu no hibi(days)
posted by mercedo at 7:03 AM | 0 comments
Friday, April 07, 2006
Zen Ya XIV
Boku wa koushite kousha(school building) wo mioroshite itte mo
Sukoshimo zunuketa onna no mata wa boku no ouzora no naka ni tobitatte ite,
Douyara higashi no yama migi no kawa no aida ni boku no katsuro ga miidasare souda.
Koko de neratta emono ga dondon nigete iku ga,
Boku no ryoujuu wa sou wa ikanai
Himalaya no uki no naka ni mita onna no ashiato ga sonokoto wo suiryou(assumption) shite iru no de,
Sore wa yurushigatai
Tonikaku hanabana ga
Kuuchuu wo migoto ni mioroshite iru kara soushita moromoro no dekigoto wo shojo(vergin) no umai(sleeping well)ni kurabete mite mo dounimo naranai.
Mijiban no ue wo hashiru pen no hari wa
Tokei de mo sore ga mienai fuusha(windmill)no garandou de aru koto to onaji nano dakara
Sore wa boku ni wa tsuuyou shinai no de ikanaru mono mo onna no asoko wo shiru no wa itsumo kaze no naka ni kiri wo miru Sascatch no tozantai wa shinu koto wo aete shinai to iu kara sore was boku da.
Sore de boku no migiude ni ude kara deru chi(blood) no naka no sakebi ga yuruku sadou(operate) shihajimete,
Sunawachi koboreochiru tomodachi no hashigeta ga kuruhi mo kuruhi mo boku wo kurushimeta.
posted by mercedo at 11:54 AM | 0 comments
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Zen Ya XIII
Tokoroga sono hi
Boku wa yume ni baku wo mita ga
Sore wa douyara onna wo imi suru rakuda no you na tourui(luctose) wo shiru hame ni naru rashii no da ga
Douyara boku ni wa magic no you ni mieru kara
Fushigi wa kazukazu no shirewaza wo umi
Shadatsu na ounou wa iyoku suru douro wo sakamichi ni suru rashii
Monogatari no haaku wa yamayama no tenkai wo youi ni shi, sore wo miru ike wa yagate mizu wo nakushite iku
Tori tachi no mure ga itsunomanika senkai(go around) suru higashi no hou e iku no wa
Itsu kara ka shirenaiga totemo miwake ga tsukumai
Soredemo yagate kawa gun no Jona wa pet wo mochiiru to iu kara
Fushigi ga umu yorokobi no kimochi wa boku ni wa totemo kimochi warui
To iu hito ga koko suujitsu
Ano kami de boku wo mihiraita no de
Douyara boku wa koko ni iru bike wa tsuppashiri jigoku wo kakemeguru hibi wo tanoshimou de wa nai darouka.
Demo, yahari ano onna no chichi(bosom) wa doubutsu no nakigoe dakara.
Tsukande mo suitsuku ichijiku no me(eye) wo boku no mono de suitsuku to wa sore wa kekkou na hanashi daga,
Atama wa dekaku te nakami no nai onna yori mo, mashi rashii to iu kara omoshiroi to,
Itte(say) iru otoko wa den'en no naka de
Douyara dojou(water eel) wo tsukamaete korosou to shite iru rashii ga,
Sentouki(fighter plane) ga meguru kono toki koso wa
Yagate kubi wo kiru you ni naru rashii no wa, tsumari kouiu koto nanoda.
Shokuji(meal) ga nai kara asu wa matt no ue de tsuki(moon) no deru ban wo tan naru yama yama no naka ni miidashita to iu kara
Boku wa mitsumenaosaneba naranai kazukazu no youi ni wakaranai kono otoko tachi no mure wo sagashite iru koto ni naru to iu
Tent no mukougawa(over there) ni hitsuji tachi no mure ga kawa no mizu wo motomete
Kuuchuu ni tobu tori no oukina hito no kao wo doko kara ka kiite kiteiru you de aru.
Kao ga tobitachite mo ii no wa
Mu(nothingness) ga tsukisasaru no wo kuitomeyou to shite mo muda da to iu no ni niteiru(similar) no da.
Soushita wa
Aru makiba de ushi no naka ni tama(bullet) rashii nagare boshi wa hirameku no de
Boku wa douyara ma(evil spirit) ga sasu nakama wo mi ni tsukehajimeru no wa ittai douiu wake darou.
posted by mercedo at 9:51 AM | 0 comments
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Zen Ya XII
Itsushika asa ni nari
Itoguruma wa iro pen wo kushi (let them work well) shite nagareru me no namida wasore wo yurushi wa shina.
Chigaku no sekai wa tojirareta onna no me wo hiraita sono me wo kazaru subete wa ashi ni aru to shiru rashii
posted by mercedo at 10:52 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya XI
Yagate kuruma ga ugokidashi
Pen no ink wa kasakasa ni natta kigi no douro no kiri no naka wo kemuri wo kutte ikiru roba ga senryou shihajimeru toki
Boku ni totte wa saidai no yorokobi wo motarasu node, itsushika onna tachi wa ie ie no kemushi bwo kuu.
Sore wa wakiga no you
Sonotoki ie ie no denki wa kesare
Kuro ga kiiro wo medachitagaru no wa
Douyara hei no waki no cobra ga boku no te wo nameteiru
Kigi wa midori da
Doushite koko wa ekimae no douro de
Hitobito ga tou(tower) ni
koushite ikiteiru ashitachi wo tsuretekuru hon no kazukazu no page wo onna ga migomoru no wa itomo youi daga
Tsukare wo iezu
Entoukei no mineral wo momihosu to soko wa yagate uchuu wo hiraiteiku katachi wo miidasu no daga, tetsu no kusari wa mon wo kizuku tenshi no mure ga hane wo mushirare
Boku no katawara ni onna no katame to ashi no kirehashi ga boku wo ijimeru.
Iwanakute mo wakatte iru.
Tetsu wa kami(paper) yori kuihajimeru no wa kawarui(leather goods) no mure ga jougi wo kowashite iku Amazon no ashiato wa itsumo saisho da.
Helicopter kara dangan ga
Itsumo miehajimeta tsumoride kai wo taberu toki
Tsukare wo shoujiru kawa no mizu no sai(rhino) no yume wa itsushika hikari wo hanachihajimeru.
Me wo shiru toki boku wa odotte tsuno wo heshioru.
Hercules no hanaiki ga kodai kara ima ni itaru madekamikire wo uchuu no ankoku no tokoro kara hanatsuno wa
Akuma no kami no hangyaku wo sore wa imisuru typewriter no oto ga asu no onna no kazukazu no katachi kara souzou(imagine)o suru boku no me
posted by mercedo at 10:32 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya X
Hikarabita kaminoke no naka ni sonzai no oku no hana ga, doyomeku gunshuu to tomo ni warera ni hikari no sanbi wo motarasu toki
Samazama na kokemushita musumetachi no ie ie ni
Tetsudai wo mooshideru wakai hatarakite tachi no ashiato
Koushita subete wo zenin suru tenjou no kamitachi no moromoro no tezawari
Sunawachi buta wa ki wo aishi
Christmas no sanka wa korera wo hidoku muchiuchi
Shikamo mata sonzai no naka ni mi wo otoshita warera no te no kawatachi wo
Boku wa hitotabi waraou to shita
Sore wa douiu wake ka boku ni totte wa shiroku mie
Sono hikari wo waratte iru onna tachi no chibusa ga
Boku no me no mae ni Ikizuku hima mo naku
Neko wa ue e noboru
posted by mercedo at 10:23 AM | 0 comments
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Zen Ya IX
Gen ni ishiki sareta jibun ga sore de aru to iu hoshou ga nai no to douyou ni toki wa hon(book) wo koete, taionkei no suigin wo ningen wa kuu. Shokushita mono ga shi(death) ka ore no utou(right head)ga shi(death) ka. Taete sono minori wo jisshi shi, kitarubeki daikannan ni sonaeyou de wa nai ka.
Madamada zen'ya de aru. Yoru ga kureba ore wa matomo ni naru. Oo Majo---------
Yameyou. Ore niwa yoru ni mukete no kyuusoku ga hitsuyou da. Ase wo nagashita. Tsuki wo mita. Asa wo mukaete, yama wo koe, tani wo koe, yume wo koe, oka ni iru hitotsubu noishi wo hiroi, touku no sanjou no mittsu no hoshi ni nage, hoshi wa yoru wo tsutsumikomi, wareware no sumu 'sekai' wo sanbi shi ------tokei wo shimeshi, yubisasu te wo hitsuyou to suru tame ni.
Dobuzoko ni
Totetsumonaku oukina ishi ga nagekomareta.
Tobichitta kuro wa yoboshi wo kuroku someta.
Sono toki
'Neko no me' wa
Mattaku no kuro kara totsuzen hikari wo hanachi
Ichimokusan ni uchuu wo igi shita.
Soushite nochi
Alps sanchu kara
Tohou mo naku chiisana piano ga detekita.
Kowagaru koto wa nai
Xx fujin wa ima
Kokezuriochita shinde shimatta no de aru.
Kare mo mata, hitonigiri no suna de aru. Kore wa chijou e maki, samazamana hana wo umanebanaranai.
Ore wa mata, koko de fude o okaneba naranai.
-7/27/1978
posted by mercedo at 10:02 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya VIII
Dareka oshiete yatte kure, ore no yukue wo. Ore wa mita mono wa mita no da. Mienai mono mo mita to iihatte iru noda. Sumire no naka ni sensha ga, chiheisen no chikaku kara oukina kao ga mieru to itte iru noda.
Chi wa botan no hitokakera
Nagameru toki ni arch wo egaki
Me wo otosu koro niwa zujou ni aru.
Yama wa tani wo sonshou(respect) suru
Nazenara takai mono wa chi de
Hikui mono ga botan dakara.
Sore hodo boku wa kurutta noda.
Gen ni ore ga tabeteite
Sore ga kurutta shippo no you ni
Hanete, chitte me ga tsuburete shimau hodo ni.
posted by mercedo at 9:43 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya VII
Kami ga kami taroutosuru you ni, hito wa hito taroutoshi, ore wa ore taroutoshi, yoru wo mukae, hiru wo mukae, asa ga kuru koro ni niwatori wa hito ni ikichi wo teikyou shi, ore wa onna to kyoubou shi, San juu san nin no otokotachi wo korosu. Korosareta otokotachi ga tannaru iki de aru to wakatta toki ore wa onna wo dakisukume, kita niaru St Louis no machi e iki, kona milk wo tsukami, kuruttayouni nakisakebi, kanojo wa soko de ten ni nobori, ore wa sore wo miru toki tenshi no youna hikari ni kanojo wa tsutsumare,ore no kuchi ga subete wo nomihosu toki yoru wo mukae, hiru wo mukae, asa wo mukae, soshite mata, ore wa sonzai no naka ni mi wo otoshi, kuru hi mo kuru hi mo hito wo mite machi wo mite juujika wo mite, ongaku wo mite, yane no ue ni tatsu jinrui no bunka to, ningen no shouchou wo tate doryoku wo oshimanu uchuujin no jitsuzou wo sore ni hakken shi, yagate kuru akuma no hi ni keifuku suru. Kore de iika. Mita mono wa douji ni kako to nari kyou to nari mirai to nari toki wo koe, tochi wo koe, umi wo koe, midori no me wo koe, kaitei e moguri, gendai no kagaku(science) to tokeai, hito wo koe, arashi wo koe, onna no karada wo koe, yume wo mite nureteshimau mono ni naru gurai nara atsui hou ga ii to ii, kurutta sensha wo shiki suru doubutsutachi ni korosareru kurai nara te no naka no kekkan no naka ni sumu ningentachi to tokeatta hou ga ii to iu. ----------
posted by mercedo at 9:18 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya VI
Ore wa tsukareta. Ore ga saigo ni ian no chi wo motomete miru mono ga aru to sureba, ore ni chuudan no sawari de aru zawazawa to iu.........onna no no-sleeve, kanojo no sugata de aru sono chibusa wa dekirukagiri shizen niore wa yasuragu. Sore wa mata inochi, ishuu de aru. Yue ni ore wa mou tsukare wo shitte toui sabaku e iki, mittsu no hoshi wo mitsuke, doushi wo ten to aogi, mittsu ni seinaru toiki wo age, ore wa geijutsu tarou to suru mono wo nikumi.
Hitei suru. Ore wa tsukareta. Ore wa tsukarekitta. Touku de joushou suru nagareboshi wo mita.
posted by mercedo at 8:59 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya V
Arayuru mono ga aru to sureba, ore no hana wa nai. Boku no bikuu ni wa nagai mukashi ni kurutta you na neji wo, tokei noyou na ballpen wo, nagai aida, sukoshizutsu sukoshizutsu irerareta kara. Ore nishikou ga aru to sureba sore wa oto da. Oto sata nashi. Mukashi kara genshi no sugata wa kawatte ore no atama ga ishiki suru hikari no oku, sore wa mata, koboreru you na reiteki. Nietagiru you na ikari no kuuki no naka no hitotsu no kyodai na hari. Karera wa tsune ni deru kikai naku, ore no ue ni kunrin shi, ore wo messhi, ore wo udarase, natsu wa fuyu yori mo iika to iu kanjou wo seibu shi, inoshishi wo chiribamete ore no me nonaka ni ire, ore no kankaku wo kyokudo ni hezurashi, ore ni kare wo nikume to shiji shita risei wo koroshi, ore ni kami wo shire to suru ore wa honki ka to iu, ore wa ore ka?
posted by mercedo at 8:14 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya IV
Yoru de aru. Shikou nado ari wa shinai. Shi(poesy) wa masashiku ore hitori de ari katsu kadan(flower bed) de aru.
Hitori no otoko ga sebiro de kaidan wo oriru. Me wa.........kyokudo ni shiru mono wa shitta no de aru. Me ga hito no nioi wo kaguhodo ni.........ashi wa kuruma ni mukau. Mukashi mita tougyuu ga gake wo suberiochiru you ni.
Nani wo mitaka? Nani mo mita. Gen ni aru mono subete mita. Kyokudo ni are wa ore wo igi shita. Sore wa oukii sonzai, ningen, tougyuu da. Sore wa musubitsukanu mono, akuma de aru. Hikari wa kare wo ishiki shi kyouki tarashimeta sonzai wa gen ni oku no yama kara mukatte tsukisusumu. Zen'ya wa nagai.
posted by mercedo at 7:26 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya III
Tsugi ni mita mono wa nandemonai ana de aru. Garasu de ari lens de aru. Basha de ari hikari, shikou senu atama, me no nai mono, hana kara atama ni taishite kekkan ga tsumatte shimatta onna. Zen'ya de aru. Higoto ore wa shikou senu. Higoto ore wa mono de aru. Chikara de ari hikari, yume de ari jittai, namanurui kiki, soshite kiki, oo ore no atama yo, ore no atama ni ore wa shitagau!
Oo mita. Soshite atama wa kanjita. Ishiki ga tsuzuki, kita wa obore, nishi ga higashi to kousaku suru. Ashita no yoru ni watashi wa onna o miru. Sakana no te wo motsu otoko wo miru.
Ki nade tsukiwa shinai. Boku wa kyokudo ni kyoubouka shita.
posted by mercedo at 7:11 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya II
Junjun ni boku wa miteitta. Kyoufu wo shikou shi, sore wo nouzui ni todometa. Soshite mata, tensai no shikou ga ore no nou wo sasshou shi, douji ni seijuku shita tomato no namajiru wo nomasete kureta. Junjun ni boku wa, jiyuu ni mita. Ore no sekai ga futatsu ari, sore ga mattaku chigatte ita. Hitotsu wa boku wa unmei wo junjun ni mitekita. Hitotsu wa boku wa......wakaru mono wa mita. Hito wo de ari kami de aru. Yue de ari shishi de aru. Sakuran wa chitsujo de aru. Nazenara watashi wa miteitta kara.
posted by mercedo at 6:13 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya
Naniyue no sei ka, shi ka, inochi ka, kami ka....naniyue no midori ka, hana ka, kawa ka, mori ka......mizu nashi da, ore no atama wa, karakara da. Soshite mata, shi de aru. Ongaku, sousureba mata, onna de aru. .........Kankaku da! Sou atama wa shikou suru. Soshite mata boku de aru. Soshite mata, ongaku de aru. Sousureba mata......hitori no onna de aru. Soshite mata ore wa.
Sonzai suru koto wo utagawanai. Ore ga iru koto wo utagawanai. Soshite mata hana de aru. Katsute wa hana wa ore no teki......amari ni chiisasugiru no da. Soshite mata ore no tomo......amari ni oukisugiru no da. Soshite mata shi, kore de owari da. Shi no tsugi kara da.
Ore no kokoro wa oukisugiru. Nazenara utsuwa ga chiisasugiru. Ore no kokoro wa tada no sonzai. Watashi wa sonzai suru mono ni keifuku suru.Onna wa kodomo da. Nazenara otoko wa inu da. Soshite mata, ore no atama wa shikou suru. Kankaku wo shikou suru. Dore ni mo kakenu. Yue ni ore wa kakenu.
Hitsuzen no baishaku da. Muimi no houshutsu da. Ranpi. Ari to arukoe wo kiku me, ikutsuka no koe o miru kuchi, soshite taberu tame ni ore no atama. Nazenara uma ga hi wo miru you ni, kiri ga tae wo suru you ni, kotoba wa nai. Tada aru no wa jittai, mujun kara shoujiru inochi, tamashii kara ikitekuru nara no ki, soshite mata kussatta atama de aru. Katsute no shouri wo motarashita no wa kono hikarabita kami no ke, oukina rutsubo de aru. Nikuya no waza ga ore no me ni shimiru. Katsute ore wa aishita. Kanpeki na yami wo. Soshite mata nani ka ari, nani mo tsukamenu te wo kourasete yorokobu haka no hi wo.
posted by mercedo at 5:05 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya
Saturday, 8. April 2006, 19:21:43
Saturday, April 08, 2006
Zen Ya XVIII
Soushita koto no subete wa suijou(on the water) no gassou(ensamble) dakara boku ni wa toutei obotsukanai.
Senzai(detergent) wo tsukatte wa kirei ninaru hame wo shiru rashii to iu kara hotel nami da.
Arashi no naka wo fune ga susunde iku
Nezumi ga ippiki shinda
Sore wa kono hi(day) wo shitte ita no ka
Chiisana mushi(insect) wa mushiro sukinakurai de
Boku wa furo no naka ni namikimichi wo mita
Kore de kono shi(poem)no hanbun ga sugita ga
Itsumo wareware no mae ni tachihadakarukoto wo shiranai de boku wa iru
20/Sep/1980
posted by mercedo at 9:09 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya XVII
Ink wo keshite Koroshi wo yamete
Tasogare wa mizu(water) ni nabiku gozen(morning) no yuuhi(sunset)
Tetsutachi(steels)was ishi(stones) wo kuchiku(kick out) shi
Mirai wa kono toki wo tsukuru
Tenmon(astronomy) wa hirakarete iru to iu kara
Tonde iru hibi(days) no natsu no yuugure da.
Soushite mo nao, boku wa mi ni oboe no nai koto wo ukenakereba ikenai
Higaisha wa gaijin wo kuroku someru rashii. Kuroi yuuhi wa sono ba kagiri de atte wa ikenai shi, mata sono te wo boku ga namete miru.
Moromoro no
Yuugure no naka no atama wa karappo
Demo boku wa yukou
Kasakasashita genjitsu de aru to wa omowanai
Toritachi ga mizube de kuchi wo tsugumu you ni
Imamade no koto wa subete kuchi wo tsugunde
Ikanakutewa ikenai Shuppatsu no tame ni mo
Sore wa arera ni mo mashite
Shinde iru shigai(corpus) wa kitanai to iu node
Boku wa yakudousuru nyotai(woman body)wo motometa no de aru ga
Sorekara ikunichi ka tatte
Boku no tokimeki ga naku
Temoii to iu hibi(days) wo genshutsu surumafuyu no hibi(days) wo
Hinode to tomo ni boku wa iku natsu no yuugure
Sore wa 'Zenin(approval)' to iu imi nano da
Konomama susume to iu shimizu no oto ga kikoeru
Ano yama no sanpuku kara wa
Machimachi no sugata wa mieta de arou ni
Hashikiraneba naranu Kono fuyu no hibi(days)
Natsu wo keshite
Moeteiku onna no karada no ue(up) de
Boku wa tada naranu koto wo shirihajimete iru no de
posted by mercedo at 8:18 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya XV
Sonzai wa boku wo yagate hi(sun)no naka ni mitsume naoshi
Hankachi no kitte(cut) otosareta tokoro wo chi(blood) ga nurarete iku no wa nanto mo fushigi na ki ga suru no da
Tokoro de boku no shitte iru koto daga
garasu no mae no onna hodo kirei ni boku wo ishiki surumono wa nairashii to iu kara
Soushita koro taiheiyou jou wo kirameku okugata ga hadaka de nurashita otoko no kawo mo shiru no da.Kounatte kara to iu mono koroshiai wa Gadalcanal no rentai(platoon) wo moromoro ni shita.
posted by mercedo at 7:30 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya XVI
Garasu wa kuzure ochite
Douyara sebiro no otokotachi wa
Koushite itsumo kawasuji no semai michi wo tootte gakkou wo koroshimete iru rashii ga,
Boku ni wa sore ga kyoufu ni mo miezu, doushitemo onnanoko ga suki de aru kara,
Onna ga aruku no wa kaidan wo kegasu ubaguruma no chichi(bosom) no chi(blood) no niwoi wo kagu koto ga hitsuyou de aru to kiku(listen) no wa,
Totemo ii kimochi de mo
Yagate tsukisasaru mono wa nuite mo shiranyo to iihanachi,
Tondemo nai tokoro kara boku wa iikimochi de neteiru to iwareru okusama tachi wa shiawase de aru.
Nagai doubutsu no seikatsu kara kontoki wo egaku pen no nagare wa onna ni shiawase wo ataeru hakuchou no kubi no nagasa de aru kara
Yuki(snow) ga futtemo boku ni wa tondemo nai koto no you niwa omowarenai aki(autumn) no yuugure wa subarashii to iu hibi(days) wo motsu no wa, kono boku ga osoreteiru.
Shikashi sore wa boku no yowasa dewa naika toiu manatsu no hibi(days)
posted by mercedo at 7:03 AM | 0 comments
Friday, April 07, 2006
Zen Ya XIV
Boku wa koushite kousha(school building) wo mioroshite itte mo
Sukoshimo zunuketa onna no mata wa boku no ouzora no naka ni tobitatte ite,
Douyara higashi no yama migi no kawa no aida ni boku no katsuro ga miidasare souda.
Koko de neratta emono ga dondon nigete iku ga,
Boku no ryoujuu wa sou wa ikanai
Himalaya no uki no naka ni mita onna no ashiato ga sonokoto wo suiryou(assumption) shite iru no de,
Sore wa yurushigatai
Tonikaku hanabana ga
Kuuchuu wo migoto ni mioroshite iru kara soushita moromoro no dekigoto wo shojo(vergin) no umai(sleeping well)ni kurabete mite mo dounimo naranai.
Mijiban no ue wo hashiru pen no hari wa
Tokei de mo sore ga mienai fuusha(windmill)no garandou de aru koto to onaji nano dakara
Sore wa boku ni wa tsuuyou shinai no de ikanaru mono mo onna no asoko wo shiru no wa itsumo kaze no naka ni kiri wo miru Sascatch no tozantai wa shinu koto wo aete shinai to iu kara sore was boku da.
Sore de boku no migiude ni ude kara deru chi(blood) no naka no sakebi ga yuruku sadou(operate) shihajimete,
Sunawachi koboreochiru tomodachi no hashigeta ga kuruhi mo kuruhi mo boku wo kurushimeta.
posted by mercedo at 11:54 AM | 0 comments
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Zen Ya XIII
Tokoroga sono hi
Boku wa yume ni baku wo mita ga
Sore wa douyara onna wo imi suru rakuda no you na tourui(luctose) wo shiru hame ni naru rashii no da ga
Douyara boku ni wa magic no you ni mieru kara
Fushigi wa kazukazu no shirewaza wo umi
Shadatsu na ounou wa iyoku suru douro wo sakamichi ni suru rashii
Monogatari no haaku wa yamayama no tenkai wo youi ni shi, sore wo miru ike wa yagate mizu wo nakushite iku
Tori tachi no mure ga itsunomanika senkai(go around) suru higashi no hou e iku no wa
Itsu kara ka shirenaiga totemo miwake ga tsukumai
Soredemo yagate kawa gun no Jona wa pet wo mochiiru to iu kara
Fushigi ga umu yorokobi no kimochi wa boku ni wa totemo kimochi warui
To iu hito ga koko suujitsu
Ano kami de boku wo mihiraita no de
Douyara boku wa koko ni iru bike wa tsuppashiri jigoku wo kakemeguru hibi wo tanoshimou de wa nai darouka.
Demo, yahari ano onna no chichi(bosom) wa doubutsu no nakigoe dakara.
Tsukande mo suitsuku ichijiku no me(eye) wo boku no mono de suitsuku to wa sore wa kekkou na hanashi daga,
Atama wa dekaku te nakami no nai onna yori mo, mashi rashii to iu kara omoshiroi to,
Itte(say) iru otoko wa den'en no naka de
Douyara dojou(water eel) wo tsukamaete korosou to shite iru rashii ga,
Sentouki(fighter plane) ga meguru kono toki koso wa
Yagate kubi wo kiru you ni naru rashii no wa, tsumari kouiu koto nanoda.
Shokuji(meal) ga nai kara asu wa matt no ue de tsuki(moon) no deru ban wo tan naru yama yama no naka ni miidashita to iu kara
Boku wa mitsumenaosaneba naranai kazukazu no youi ni wakaranai kono otoko tachi no mure wo sagashite iru koto ni naru to iu
Tent no mukougawa(over there) ni hitsuji tachi no mure ga kawa no mizu wo motomete
Kuuchuu ni tobu tori no oukina hito no kao wo doko kara ka kiite kiteiru you de aru.
Kao ga tobitachite mo ii no wa
Mu(nothingness) ga tsukisasaru no wo kuitomeyou to shite mo muda da to iu no ni niteiru(similar) no da.
Soushita wa
Aru makiba de ushi no naka ni tama(bullet) rashii nagare boshi wa hirameku no de
Boku wa douyara ma(evil spirit) ga sasu nakama wo mi ni tsukehajimeru no wa ittai douiu wake darou.
posted by mercedo at 9:51 AM | 0 comments
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Zen Ya XII
Itsushika asa ni nari
Itoguruma wa iro pen wo kushi (let them work well) shite nagareru me no namida wasore wo yurushi wa shina.
Chigaku no sekai wa tojirareta onna no me wo hiraita sono me wo kazaru subete wa ashi ni aru to shiru rashii
posted by mercedo at 10:52 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya XI
Yagate kuruma ga ugokidashi
Pen no ink wa kasakasa ni natta kigi no douro no kiri no naka wo kemuri wo kutte ikiru roba ga senryou shihajimeru toki
Boku ni totte wa saidai no yorokobi wo motarasu node, itsushika onna tachi wa ie ie no kemushi bwo kuu.
Sore wa wakiga no you
Sonotoki ie ie no denki wa kesare
Kuro ga kiiro wo medachitagaru no wa
Douyara hei no waki no cobra ga boku no te wo nameteiru
Kigi wa midori da
Doushite koko wa ekimae no douro de
Hitobito ga tou(tower) ni
koushite ikiteiru ashitachi wo tsuretekuru hon no kazukazu no page wo onna ga migomoru no wa itomo youi daga
Tsukare wo iezu
Entoukei no mineral wo momihosu to soko wa yagate uchuu wo hiraiteiku katachi wo miidasu no daga, tetsu no kusari wa mon wo kizuku tenshi no mure ga hane wo mushirare
Boku no katawara ni onna no katame to ashi no kirehashi ga boku wo ijimeru.
Iwanakute mo wakatte iru.
Tetsu wa kami(paper) yori kuihajimeru no wa kawarui(leather goods) no mure ga jougi wo kowashite iku Amazon no ashiato wa itsumo saisho da.
Helicopter kara dangan ga
Itsumo miehajimeta tsumoride kai wo taberu toki
Tsukare wo shoujiru kawa no mizu no sai(rhino) no yume wa itsushika hikari wo hanachihajimeru.
Me wo shiru toki boku wa odotte tsuno wo heshioru.
Hercules no hanaiki ga kodai kara ima ni itaru madekamikire wo uchuu no ankoku no tokoro kara hanatsuno wa
Akuma no kami no hangyaku wo sore wa imisuru typewriter no oto ga asu no onna no kazukazu no katachi kara souzou(imagine)o suru boku no me
posted by mercedo at 10:32 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya X
Hikarabita kaminoke no naka ni sonzai no oku no hana ga, doyomeku gunshuu to tomo ni warera ni hikari no sanbi wo motarasu toki
Samazama na kokemushita musumetachi no ie ie ni
Tetsudai wo mooshideru wakai hatarakite tachi no ashiato
Koushita subete wo zenin suru tenjou no kamitachi no moromoro no tezawari
Sunawachi buta wa ki wo aishi
Christmas no sanka wa korera wo hidoku muchiuchi
Shikamo mata sonzai no naka ni mi wo otoshita warera no te no kawatachi wo
Boku wa hitotabi waraou to shita
Sore wa douiu wake ka boku ni totte wa shiroku mie
Sono hikari wo waratte iru onna tachi no chibusa ga
Boku no me no mae ni Ikizuku hima mo naku
Neko wa ue e noboru
posted by mercedo at 10:23 AM | 0 comments
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Zen Ya IX
Gen ni ishiki sareta jibun ga sore de aru to iu hoshou ga nai no to douyou ni toki wa hon(book) wo koete, taionkei no suigin wo ningen wa kuu. Shokushita mono ga shi(death) ka ore no utou(right head)ga shi(death) ka. Taete sono minori wo jisshi shi, kitarubeki daikannan ni sonaeyou de wa nai ka.
Madamada zen'ya de aru. Yoru ga kureba ore wa matomo ni naru. Oo Majo---------
Yameyou. Ore niwa yoru ni mukete no kyuusoku ga hitsuyou da. Ase wo nagashita. Tsuki wo mita. Asa wo mukaete, yama wo koe, tani wo koe, yume wo koe, oka ni iru hitotsubu noishi wo hiroi, touku no sanjou no mittsu no hoshi ni nage, hoshi wa yoru wo tsutsumikomi, wareware no sumu 'sekai' wo sanbi shi ------tokei wo shimeshi, yubisasu te wo hitsuyou to suru tame ni.
Dobuzoko ni
Totetsumonaku oukina ishi ga nagekomareta.
Tobichitta kuro wa yoboshi wo kuroku someta.
Sono toki
'Neko no me' wa
Mattaku no kuro kara totsuzen hikari wo hanachi
Ichimokusan ni uchuu wo igi shita.
Soushite nochi
Alps sanchu kara
Tohou mo naku chiisana piano ga detekita.
Kowagaru koto wa nai
Xx fujin wa ima
Kokezuriochita shinde shimatta no de aru.
Kare mo mata, hitonigiri no suna de aru. Kore wa chijou e maki, samazamana hana wo umanebanaranai.
Ore wa mata, koko de fude o okaneba naranai.
-7/27/1978
posted by mercedo at 10:02 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya VIII
Dareka oshiete yatte kure, ore no yukue wo. Ore wa mita mono wa mita no da. Mienai mono mo mita to iihatte iru noda. Sumire no naka ni sensha ga, chiheisen no chikaku kara oukina kao ga mieru to itte iru noda.
Chi wa botan no hitokakera
Nagameru toki ni arch wo egaki
Me wo otosu koro niwa zujou ni aru.
Yama wa tani wo sonshou(respect) suru
Nazenara takai mono wa chi de
Hikui mono ga botan dakara.
Sore hodo boku wa kurutta noda.
Gen ni ore ga tabeteite
Sore ga kurutta shippo no you ni
Hanete, chitte me ga tsuburete shimau hodo ni.
posted by mercedo at 9:43 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya VII
Kami ga kami taroutosuru you ni, hito wa hito taroutoshi, ore wa ore taroutoshi, yoru wo mukae, hiru wo mukae, asa ga kuru koro ni niwatori wa hito ni ikichi wo teikyou shi, ore wa onna to kyoubou shi, San juu san nin no otokotachi wo korosu. Korosareta otokotachi ga tannaru iki de aru to wakatta toki ore wa onna wo dakisukume, kita niaru St Louis no machi e iki, kona milk wo tsukami, kuruttayouni nakisakebi, kanojo wa soko de ten ni nobori, ore wa sore wo miru toki tenshi no youna hikari ni kanojo wa tsutsumare,ore no kuchi ga subete wo nomihosu toki yoru wo mukae, hiru wo mukae, asa wo mukae, soshite mata, ore wa sonzai no naka ni mi wo otoshi, kuru hi mo kuru hi mo hito wo mite machi wo mite juujika wo mite, ongaku wo mite, yane no ue ni tatsu jinrui no bunka to, ningen no shouchou wo tate doryoku wo oshimanu uchuujin no jitsuzou wo sore ni hakken shi, yagate kuru akuma no hi ni keifuku suru. Kore de iika. Mita mono wa douji ni kako to nari kyou to nari mirai to nari toki wo koe, tochi wo koe, umi wo koe, midori no me wo koe, kaitei e moguri, gendai no kagaku(science) to tokeai, hito wo koe, arashi wo koe, onna no karada wo koe, yume wo mite nureteshimau mono ni naru gurai nara atsui hou ga ii to ii, kurutta sensha wo shiki suru doubutsutachi ni korosareru kurai nara te no naka no kekkan no naka ni sumu ningentachi to tokeatta hou ga ii to iu. ----------
posted by mercedo at 9:18 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya VI
Ore wa tsukareta. Ore ga saigo ni ian no chi wo motomete miru mono ga aru to sureba, ore ni chuudan no sawari de aru zawazawa to iu.........onna no no-sleeve, kanojo no sugata de aru sono chibusa wa dekirukagiri shizen niore wa yasuragu. Sore wa mata inochi, ishuu de aru. Yue ni ore wa mou tsukare wo shitte toui sabaku e iki, mittsu no hoshi wo mitsuke, doushi wo ten to aogi, mittsu ni seinaru toiki wo age, ore wa geijutsu tarou to suru mono wo nikumi.
Hitei suru. Ore wa tsukareta. Ore wa tsukarekitta. Touku de joushou suru nagareboshi wo mita.
posted by mercedo at 8:59 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya V
Arayuru mono ga aru to sureba, ore no hana wa nai. Boku no bikuu ni wa nagai mukashi ni kurutta you na neji wo, tokei noyou na ballpen wo, nagai aida, sukoshizutsu sukoshizutsu irerareta kara. Ore nishikou ga aru to sureba sore wa oto da. Oto sata nashi. Mukashi kara genshi no sugata wa kawatte ore no atama ga ishiki suru hikari no oku, sore wa mata, koboreru you na reiteki. Nietagiru you na ikari no kuuki no naka no hitotsu no kyodai na hari. Karera wa tsune ni deru kikai naku, ore no ue ni kunrin shi, ore wo messhi, ore wo udarase, natsu wa fuyu yori mo iika to iu kanjou wo seibu shi, inoshishi wo chiribamete ore no me nonaka ni ire, ore no kankaku wo kyokudo ni hezurashi, ore ni kare wo nikume to shiji shita risei wo koroshi, ore ni kami wo shire to suru ore wa honki ka to iu, ore wa ore ka?
posted by mercedo at 8:14 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya IV
Yoru de aru. Shikou nado ari wa shinai. Shi(poesy) wa masashiku ore hitori de ari katsu kadan(flower bed) de aru.
Hitori no otoko ga sebiro de kaidan wo oriru. Me wa.........kyokudo ni shiru mono wa shitta no de aru. Me ga hito no nioi wo kaguhodo ni.........ashi wa kuruma ni mukau. Mukashi mita tougyuu ga gake wo suberiochiru you ni.
Nani wo mitaka? Nani mo mita. Gen ni aru mono subete mita. Kyokudo ni are wa ore wo igi shita. Sore wa oukii sonzai, ningen, tougyuu da. Sore wa musubitsukanu mono, akuma de aru. Hikari wa kare wo ishiki shi kyouki tarashimeta sonzai wa gen ni oku no yama kara mukatte tsukisusumu. Zen'ya wa nagai.
posted by mercedo at 7:26 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya III
Tsugi ni mita mono wa nandemonai ana de aru. Garasu de ari lens de aru. Basha de ari hikari, shikou senu atama, me no nai mono, hana kara atama ni taishite kekkan ga tsumatte shimatta onna. Zen'ya de aru. Higoto ore wa shikou senu. Higoto ore wa mono de aru. Chikara de ari hikari, yume de ari jittai, namanurui kiki, soshite kiki, oo ore no atama yo, ore no atama ni ore wa shitagau!
Oo mita. Soshite atama wa kanjita. Ishiki ga tsuzuki, kita wa obore, nishi ga higashi to kousaku suru. Ashita no yoru ni watashi wa onna o miru. Sakana no te wo motsu otoko wo miru.
Ki nade tsukiwa shinai. Boku wa kyokudo ni kyoubouka shita.
posted by mercedo at 7:11 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya II
Junjun ni boku wa miteitta. Kyoufu wo shikou shi, sore wo nouzui ni todometa. Soshite mata, tensai no shikou ga ore no nou wo sasshou shi, douji ni seijuku shita tomato no namajiru wo nomasete kureta. Junjun ni boku wa, jiyuu ni mita. Ore no sekai ga futatsu ari, sore ga mattaku chigatte ita. Hitotsu wa boku wa unmei wo junjun ni mitekita. Hitotsu wa boku wa......wakaru mono wa mita. Hito wo de ari kami de aru. Yue de ari shishi de aru. Sakuran wa chitsujo de aru. Nazenara watashi wa miteitta kara.
posted by mercedo at 6:13 AM | 0 comments
Zen Ya
Naniyue no sei ka, shi ka, inochi ka, kami ka....naniyue no midori ka, hana ka, kawa ka, mori ka......mizu nashi da, ore no atama wa, karakara da. Soshite mata, shi de aru. Ongaku, sousureba mata, onna de aru. .........Kankaku da! Sou atama wa shikou suru. Soshite mata boku de aru. Soshite mata, ongaku de aru. Sousureba mata......hitori no onna de aru. Soshite mata ore wa.
Sonzai suru koto wo utagawanai. Ore ga iru koto wo utagawanai. Soshite mata hana de aru. Katsute wa hana wa ore no teki......amari ni chiisasugiru no da. Soshite mata ore no tomo......amari ni oukisugiru no da. Soshite mata shi, kore de owari da. Shi no tsugi kara da.
Ore no kokoro wa oukisugiru. Nazenara utsuwa ga chiisasugiru. Ore no kokoro wa tada no sonzai. Watashi wa sonzai suru mono ni keifuku suru.Onna wa kodomo da. Nazenara otoko wa inu da. Soshite mata, ore no atama wa shikou suru. Kankaku wo shikou suru. Dore ni mo kakenu. Yue ni ore wa kakenu.
Hitsuzen no baishaku da. Muimi no houshutsu da. Ranpi. Ari to arukoe wo kiku me, ikutsuka no koe o miru kuchi, soshite taberu tame ni ore no atama. Nazenara uma ga hi wo miru you ni, kiri ga tae wo suru you ni, kotoba wa nai. Tada aru no wa jittai, mujun kara shoujiru inochi, tamashii kara ikitekuru nara no ki, soshite mata kussatta atama de aru. Katsute no shouri wo motarashita no wa kono hikarabita kami no ke, oukina rutsubo de aru. Nikuya no waza ga ore no me ni shimiru. Katsute ore wa aishita. Kanpeki na yami wo. Soshite mata nani ka ari, nani mo tsukamenu te wo kourasete yorokobu haka no hi wo.
posted by mercedo at 5:05 AM | 0 comments
Tuesday, 20 June 1978
Keijijoogakuteki junsui shiron VII
kooshite miruto hito wa genshi(primitive ages) no ko(child) to shite no shijin to naru niwa naminami de nai jooken o sonaete inakereba narukoto wa fukanoo de aru. sono koto niwa ayamari wa nai keredomo, chuukai(footnote) o kuwaete oku hitsuyoo ga aroo. sonaete iru jootai to naru made sonaeru node aru. mieru yooni narumade miru node aru. sore ni yotte kare no shinzoo ga, kare jishin ga, karejishin ga koo de aroo to shita mono de nai shiromono ni naroo to suru koto wa, daiichi sorejitai okashii. yue ni ningen wa daredemo jibun no nooroku o mikiwameru naraba, shin no shijin o mezashite kookai(voyage) suru koto ga dekiru node aru. tadashi yukusaki wa shin'en na(profound) yami de aru. shijin to naru koto wa senritsu(fear) dearu. shijin to naru koto wa senritsu de aru. shijin to naru koto wa-- yukai de aru.
shokun mo ichido tameshite minai ka.
shokun mo ichido tameshite minai ka.
Keijijoogakuteki junsui shiron VI
kenmei(wise) na shokun wa, naniyue, jittai ga kyotai de aruka to omowareru de aroo. kore wa sootaisei riron ga gotoki mono dewa nai. kore wa shijin o koeru mono no nasu waza deari, to iu yori, genshoosekai(phenomenal world) ni taisuru yori ooku no rikai o simesu tokoro no mono o anji suru mono de aru. (ningen wa seishin o tsuujite kami ni itaru! ---ika wa koo o aratamete jigoo de tenkai shite mitai.)
Keijijoogakuteki junsui shiron V
kare no shinzoo wa, kare jishin ga soo de aroo to shita mono de wa nai shiromono de aru. mata, odoroku hodo binkan na noozui o motaneba naranu. jitsuwa taisetsu nano wa koosha(latter)de aru. ikura nani o kanjiyoo tomo, kakareta jittai wa sono hito no noozui no han'ei(reflection) to iu kyotai(emptiness) dakara de aru. sosite mata kyoojin(insane) to tensai(genius) no sa wa kono itten de aru. sunawachi, shijin wa tensai deari, kyoojin wa kyoojin de aru. (koko de iu noozui wa, 'sukunaku to mo arumono no gengohyoogen ni taeru hodo no mono o motaneba naranai.' to itte okoo. kakareta zittai wa korera futatsu no yooso no soojoo sayoo no kyotai dearu.)
Keijijoogakuteki junsui shiron IV
'arumono' ga ikusei sareru niwa, (juubun ikusei sareta toki sore ga shi to shite hassan sareru node arukara) mazu, odoroku hodo binkan na shinzoo o motaneba naranu. nazenara issai nomono o mi, issai nomono o kiki, issai nomono o ajiwai, issai nomono o kagi, issai no mono o kanji - ari to ru nikkan, arito aru reikan o kanjiru tame no hitsuyoo jooken de aru kara dea ru. sosite mata, kakukoto ni shishoo ga nai kagiri ni oite, ikanaru nikutaiteki fugusha de atte mo kamawanai. kare wa me de kiki, mimi de kagu koto ga dekirukara dea ru. shijin ga sore o kunren suru too ni ittate wa mattaku bakageta koto de ari, kare no shinzoo wa tensei(inborn) de ari, kare no ishi towa mukankei no kankyoo de aru.
Keijijoogakuteki junsui shiron III
'arumono' towa nanika. sore wa sono hito no sei no issai no hoogan de ari, ittei no chitsujo nodo aroo hazuga naku, sakuran shitamono de arinagara zentai de hitotsu no yuu deari mu dearu. mu de ari yuu dearu. wakatte iruno wa sore ga gi(false) denai to iu koto dake de aru.
Keijijoogakuteki junsui shiron II
kono imi de shi zentai ga shisoo o umi, tetsugaku o umu. soshite umaneba naranu. kono imi de, shi zentai ga ningen no konpon de ari, zai jitai de aru. shi wa kotoba no raretsu deari, arugo de kakareta shi wa, ta no ikokugosha ni totte shin no rikai wa fukanoo deari, mata hon'yaku tote shin no rikai wa fukanoo de aru. shikashi kooiu zaijitai de aru shi wa, gengo hyoogen toiu keijika no mono de aru izen ni shijin no keijijooteki na 'arumono' ni yotte shihai sarete iru to itte yoi. shi wa hon'yaku no kabe o tsukinukeru no dearu.
Keijijoogakuteki junsui shiron I
shijin wa ga jiko niokeru tokushuna naiteki, gaitekitaiken o migaki ,sodateageta jootaide shi o kizukiageruhodo, iyashii ningen dewa nai. shi ni oite, subarashii subarashii geijutsu o tsukuriageru toiu, iwaba chiteki na ishi ya, sarani susunde chiteki na koosei ni itarumade shijin ni wa hitsuyou no nai shobutsu denakereba nara nai shi, mata soo de aru noga shin no genshi no sugata toshite no shi de aru. shi wa kankaku no nasareta waza de aru. shi wa tsukurumono dewa nakute arumono deari, arukoto o mitsumeru doosatsuryoku nado to iu mono dewa nakute, arukoto ga mieru to iu koto de ari, issai ga wakarukara kaku, moshikuwa wakaranai kara kaku, dewa nakute, kaita mono ga ari sorekara wakaru, moshikuwa wakaranai nanodearu.
Friday, 10 February 1978
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)